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Sunday 11 January 2015

We..!!

A Long lasting sight would be too uncertain
A lasting stare would be a mystery

A long meal so timeless at an airport
A grey hair so grown on both sides timeless

That would be an inspiration to start on
That would be my life to you & still on

This day would still yearn to live on
This love would still startle as how

Looking at you just once would suffice
Looking at life staring would be a surprise

Lasting effervescences would linger quite a bit
Lasting life this way would light our way

Wow & I realize the value so differently
Wow& I realize we as humans have just one

We would always look for that one reason
We would always run behind dat one soulful dream
We as humans would have one life
We as humans decide where we have one!!

Ajay Padattil

12/12/2014

Friday 29 August 2014

A place for a place..!!

Where this is one place to another
Where this could be another matter

Whilst this was a one to remember
Whilst this could be a mesmeriser

Want this life to be another one
Want this life to be a sweeter

Wouldnt this life seem so much more
Wouldnt this life whistle a different soul

Waiting for one too many now
Waiting for one inside but so

Wanting for much and how
Wanting for this but how

While love seems doves fly
While love is thy neigh

Whistling glories live this day
Whistling by and still you'd say?!?

Ajay Padattil
28/08/2014

Sunday 15 December 2013

HAAL.!!!

A cult group or what shall I call i…!! Still uncertain what this group of nomads would call themselves..!!

Once upon a time… in a lan far far away there lived some people… Ploodil, Bhopu, Thengaman & Mr. Thags..  Now it all started on 30 April 2007.. if my memory serves me right.. As I walked in.. there was this guy… religious at the first look but me to a shot of white mischief later that evening.. there was an elegance of sorts to the second character… wohooo!! Would be her first reaction @ sweet as heaven,,, hard as hell would totally befit the third… oops!! Did I miss myself..Thengaman would be me.. nd dats an epic in itself..!

Thengaman arose outta one sooooooperb day in a training room when there was nobody but somebody @ all of is would still revel in those glories which would be a mystery of some sort…. & imagine your bachpans life comin true& you’re a soooperhero & you’ve got guys wo’d say…ooh yea…u’r thengaman alright… Now spill how you gonna save the world?? And you say… Off a tower.!!!

Blah Blah Blah & what an afternoon… ooh did I miss that evening…. Ooh yes I didi.. me walking in when the whole feel of god’s own country hit me… the greenery… the breeze.. the people… oooh so wonderful.!!

And we walk into thw only place dat technopark would call HAVEN… oops did I miss an ‘E’.?? lol

As I walk in… I’d see a fumigated place with an aura that.. believe me.. u’d have to see it to believe it.. nothing like it.. I assure you!!

And as we went through the whole technicalities of some abbreviation that was’nt supposed to be pronounced the way it was spelt.. I actually saw myself indulging in the pure pleasures of life..and the mystery of the whole ploy was… the people were fantabulous..(do not even know if that’s a word)

HAAL.. wow… wouldn’t life have been so much more boring wo them..glad they were there… now come to think of it.. glad is an understatement…buahhahahahah!!! Now dat’d be so Bhopuuuu..!!

HAAL.. wow… wouldn’t life have been so much more boring wo them..glad they were there… now come to think of it.. I wish you guys would be legends..hehehhe.. that would be so Ploodil..!!

HAAL.. wow… wouldn’t life have been so much more boring wo them..glad they were there… now come to think of it.. Da *&$%&#@..Athannu...Phaaaaaa!! .. that would be so Mr. Thags!!

Cheers!!.. nd Me .. Where I am.. Thenga to the rescue…Up UP & Awayyyyy!!!!

Ajay Padattil

14/12/2013

Sunday 22 September 2013

The One's I Love..!!

Probably after a million years gone by
Probably a life of evils & times flown by

Pristine dreams of a lifetime would be too small
Pristine hallucinations & paranoia is still distant

Philosophies about three stars on a mountain is simmering
Philosophies about happily ever after would still be a dream

Past is the key to the future or is it??
Past is probably just one small thing to forgive

Proving things aren’t something you’d do to a loved one
Proving theories were absolutely for scientists not humans

Pranks played were always something for my love
Pranks to something you’d listen for a life is humour unsustained

Priliferous is something I just invented now
Priliferous is Me+ Ferrous ( Iron I’d read in Chemistry)

Pray we never ever live out this absolute miracle
Pray we never have to beat ourselves to this note

Screw the ‘P’ that’s daring us to do this sin
Love & Live happily ever after was never a myth!!


Ajay Padattil

22/09/2013

Tuesday 16 October 2012

Shores..!!

Afterlife still seems rosy for souls believed

After parties sound still beneath beliefs



Awestruck life’s still wobbling around

Basking in the glory of stories untold



Hope floats say many a human

Joy strikes may a boon



The healing touch of souls so

The beautiful life in handy



The swift joy sing pride

There’s a kind suffice to pretension



Those were the dreamers who dared now

These were still more songs to cry



Tamed with a deciphered trail of thought

Times fly by & we still wait at the shores…Waiting..!!



Ajay Padattil

10/14/16/2012

Thursday 21 June 2012

Live Again..!!

When here was a bit of chocolate

When there should’ve been a bit of trimlet



Was one how would call trumpet

Was one life is a big smillet



Whisper one staff would forgive

Whisper little things ain’t a begin



Wasted life would be one too many

Wasted stifling is just a name & must



Whistle a tune & this could be a storm

Whistle a tune & this still would’ve been a whistle



Oasis could actually be found in the ocean

Oasis could still be a mystery from beyond



Live people as this could forsee

Live this life coz this ain’t comin again



Ajay Padattil

17/06/2012

Let there be light..!!

There was one thing that thrilled humans

There was one thing that baffled mankind

There was one thing that confused sapiens

There was one thing that strengthened us



There was darkness & let there be light

There was darkness & let there be light



There was one thing that could have been uncertain

There was one thing that could have been strength

There was one thing that could have been awareness

There was one thing that could have been wise



There was darkness & let there be light

There was darkness & let there be light



There was one thing that should be anomalies

There was one thing that should be melodies

There was one thing that should be rhythms

There was one thing that should be small thrills



There was darkness & let there be light

There was darkness & let there be light



There was one thing that could’ve lasted forever

And then there was life..!!!



Ajay Padattil

17/06/2012

Wednesday 13 June 2012

Perceive.!!

True as life takes one different form


Thinking of the past still relives the present



Time was something beyond the understanding mind

Tokens of philosophy still do rounds of fraternity



Timeless signs still stay strong in ones soul

Tossing papers of sadness keeps the thoughts at bay



Trifle songs do bring glee into a sober heart

Talking about the simple necessity for existence



Thinking truly of these times & beyond

Trusting life to go rather vagabond



Tall and strong lie beliefs of the Homo sapiens

Taming the very demon within seems to be uncertain



Trailing thought fill the mind with gleam

Thrift gusts of breeze still warm I deem.!!



Ajay Padattil

13/06/2012

Friday 1 June 2012

My Realm..!!

The ways & realms of life that shift

The brilliant walks of truth still hidden



A journey to the unknown still overjoyed

A blast from the near feeling dismay



Into the light travel humans so smooth

Into the foresight sink beings so nimble



At crossroads do meet one soul intertwined

At concurrent paths meet destiny’s children



Amazing sights & thrones to witness

Amazing humans enlightening the very reality



If I were to be the king of my realm

My queen would be the brightest light of me!!



Ajay Padattil

01/06/2012

Thursday 23 February 2012

Just Another Elixir..!!

Lasting philosophies go a long way in deciphering
Listing glories do make a human will for his obliteration

Swiftly tho slyly paving a way for a secure future
Many a days spent by mankind enhancing their present

The silent gust of bliss alarming the heart with a drizzle
The stormy signs of relief blowin rightly so

Lifting spirits beneath the crust is still too foreign
Lightin the essence of the very flame within is the necessity

Life in many ways teaches you how to tread paths of the ordinary
Life in many ways teaches you the very basic rule of immortality

The power to live forever doesn’t reside in the bodily masses alone
The goodwill and benevolence to life forms takes an enormous role

The very source of this energy doesn’t reside in the world
Immortality is another word, just ‘U’ inside is your measurable tunnel.

Ajay Padattil
02/23/2012

Thursday 14 July 2011

Totem..!!

Nd when ur life comes a full circle
Nd when ur life takes a turn for the vicious one

Nd when ur life portrays d spin of d revolution
Nd when ur life beats the very thankful melody

Nd when ur life leaves to pick another horizon 4 dis nite
Nd when ur life lays so high dat u forget to live

Nd when ur life lived this one moment 4 ever
Nd when ur life thought dat a pole woz alive

Nd when ur life took d totem within
Nd when ur life spinned the wheels of the ice age

Nd when ur life ever thought dis is where it all comes 2
Nd when ur life thought ders moore 2 it nd is der.?

Nd when ur life thought its gonna b sweet enuff
Nd when ur life thought its gonna b d very essence of stiff rebellion




Nd when ur life thought it should lead the way
Nd when ur life always did live 4 dis moment
Dats ur totem..!!

Ajay Padattil
03/06/2011

Tuesday 1 February 2011

Lyrics Were This.!!

Talk & Talk we would forgive
Time & Again we've never been

Look Through my eyes & you'l know
Leave things as it is & you would realise

Me , Kali, Vikya, Totu meru are here
Me would sacrifice things but i guess you

Leave these things to Continuum!
Leave the violin I'd say you rock

Let this Thing be
& we should start Livin.!!!

Ajay Padattil
28/01/2011

Monday 24 January 2011

Khushi!!

When you turn a full 360 degrees
When life at munni & shiela stall

When the beer stops flowin 4 a moment
When the spirit stalls right in your soul

When nicotine & alcohol never cease to exist
When this life seems good & this damn night

When you laugh your lungs out like never before
When me & them ever look thru your eyes

When a 90 degree turn influences
0 degree is a concept.!!

Ajay Padattil
23/01/2011

Tuesday 18 January 2011

The U..!!

“The mother of all Road Trips.!!” Would be how inee would address this voyage as. The trip which made the word “Chalaaa!!” an anthem. The trip which saw the extent to which a gang of veterans could goto.. to revive the gud ol spirit. The trip which sought immediate action, spontaneity, reaction & BOOM!! we were on our way to the land of beaches, as I’d call it, Alibagh ( too many memories attached to this place… A life Changer..!! ).

It all started out as a B’day Bash…more of a fun cake party which did extend into a couple of shots to wash down the barley consumed earlier in the day. Then strikes the usual hunger, driving a car to the one beautiful place known to serve the ‘Papa’ of all delicacies… ‘Egg Bhurji’. This kinda lead on to plans being made at exactly sumthing past midnite tuning the strings we follow to yet another one of the due spontaneity trips that we were dwelling on earlier.

Since that day I have been inching to write this down someplace … call it laziness or lack of papyrus… or just me…. It happened to be today…. D Day!! Yet another time me staring at a blue screen reminiscing the times & glowing with that ‘Eid Ka Chaand’ as inee would call it, thinking of what actually did inspire the whole trip.!
I suppose it was just the mood, the ambience & most importantly the fact that inee came from the USofA, Bhau had the time & I had ‘Chalaa’ to attribute my tongue..lol ( Can’t forget the spirits that led to it tho..!).

A Bday, 10 glasses & Bhau cha Peg were the ingredients. Inee, Bhau, Ijee & me the ice cubes & A City (Beige) the vessel… To keep it short & crisp these were the factors that led to the dream which wasn’t conceived for a looong time ( an understatement) coz the last spontaneous trip culminated at the same location. There was an addition of of hammocks too last time coz we were dead tired by the time we got ourselves to the dreamy sands & the bluish skies.

A range hunt, Beer, Fires Surmai, Fired Pomfret, Cucumbers, Tomatoes, Chappathis & Bhurji was what we’d call in human terms ‘ A La Carte’!! The ocean was just too dreamy to be true & this time I did spot the horizon…. Absolutely beautiful. I did see it with my own buttons, the sea & the ocean do cross paths …. I still wonder if its an illusion tho.

We made the approach early into the morning savouring Pav Bhurji & chai at a random tapri with a really hospitable & warm kaka who did all that for us at that hr in the morning. Making a stop at a hand pump was the highlight of the trip upstream with residents of the place making sure we weren’t upto sumthing stupid…. Clicked pics… seemed to lose the cameras ’Lajja Vastr!!’… regaining it back on an extensive reverse, blair witch hunt & moving on through roads laden with trees on both sides of the road ( Didn’t check their colour…would’ve been green I suppose tho.), hunt for a place to crash, found it… No…..the place is shut… Chaal aage chalte… Mil gay Mil gaya…. Smiles all over… Crashed a while..

At least I thought we crashed. Bhau & inee are full of energy… they start off with our clans ever satisfactory time-killer….. ‘ chewing Gum’… and I truly felt like gods were talkin from heaven and stuff. The sudden bursts of laughter & then silence……the four of us laugh like mad F***s.

Mornin contd….

Me and Bhau go to find the first rays of sunlight at the place we were dreaming of to be for so long…. ‘ Kashid’… and finally we are here on those very silky white sands right next to the shiny blue lustrous ocean… looking out & exclaiming ….’ Damn!! This feels good’(Censored version for public viewing). And thus we start out on our hunt for some barley to begin the morning…. Just to keep the spirit of the beach up & kicking (The hangover of GOA still lying deep within).

We remember to make our final calls (The hunt for range) to everybody telling them we are safe & we shall be back before the next sun rises. And thus we did. Travelled a long way across the mountains to finally stall at an erection which resembled a radio tower. The funny part was that there was just one spot on the entire face of the earth at that point where you are connected to the rest of the world. A lil north, south, east or west from that point…. And you are out of this galaxy. Wrapped up the calls & went ahead with our gala time.

Went totally the other way in search of the spirits, found it…picked it….We’r back in the hotel & yearning for more. Thus me & Bhau start off the morning again with a hot cup of ‘ Chai’… Go bac into the room….. I Sip on some spirit & watch the beauty of mother nature from the balcony which was about 300m or so from the beach.
Beautiful fields with banana leaves & a couple of Kingfishers caught my attention. You look at them & you feel they are just a couple of normal birds coloured black but perched elegantly. When they do fly away, you realize how beautiful the colour blue is despite witnessing the majestic ocean & the brilliant morning skies!! There was another instance when I witnessed a breeze moving green shrubs in a pattern that was just unbelievable to the naked eyes.

Me & ijee go to the beach with our first load of spirits. Talked about everything under the sun including mythology, spirits, life & general stuff…. Very enlightening though…Like I keep saying… the potential of the human mind is beyond the imagination of mankind. The way people think, interpret, perceive & React are so damn diverse that makes YOU think how many emotions or variations of the same emotion exist in the world…… Just Fabulous the creation called humans.

We back into our lil terrace…sitting around doing more of eating this time around…. The spirit still within… this is the place where the fried delicacies were delivered. The last dialogue I remember here is ‘ Let’s Crash for a while’….and Voila!!... we did..!!

Stubborn arse that I am, inee had to take all his efforts & emotional atyachar to get me off the bed in the evening. And I was dragged down literally from my bed & I did wake up. We were off to watch the sunset glowing in subtle purple set in the background of a brilliant orange curtain. I still marvel at the fact as to how the ocean looks a brilliant violet during this phase.

We braved the sea knee down…..lol. Inee was up & ready for the brunt of the ocean screaming ‘Bring it on’, the further into the body of water that he fathomed. A man-made sand ball was thrown around from end to end while capturing the brilliant picturesque through Bhau’s lens was indeed pleasurable. A couple of canines had the time of their life as inee’s vest & Bhau’s shoes lured them into abducting the items as playthings or toys to be precise & boy!….they had a ball.

Inee & Bhau chased these dogs down & retrieved both the vest and the shoes. The vest did have a bit of freestyle art after the battle but the shoes were jus a lil soggy.. Baaki sab Khayriyat hai…!! Lol… Spotted the artist ‘Mann’ who had captured both ‘ Manjuri’ & himself within a heart shaped sand-castle adorning the beach which left us to wonder… they did leave their destiny to the ocean too.!

We traced our way back to the hotel, had a brief discussion bout the economic crisis in Ireland with a poised lady ( who knew more than we did about our motherland ). She’d travelled a lot & had an amazing amount of detail & experiences on every soil since the creation of the earth. An amazing, enlightened lady I must say. She knew her way around the world.!!

Famished & Drained, we were looking for our favy place to dine…’ Samman’…unfortunately they were open for just the first half of the day. We then were out hunting again & were faced with the grossest of Bangda( Fish) fries ever to have seen the face of the earth. The next place we ended up at(rather discovered) served us delicious prawns with a mouthwatering Fish thali… By far the best I’ve tasted so far. Now with the heaviest of stomachs there was just on thing left for me to do….’ Sleep unto the end of the world’… but then I hear the downstream anthem… inee saying ‘So jaa!! Wine shop aa gaya..!!’.

And thus ‘ The U!! Turn at shivajinagar that changed it all!!’

Cheers Inee Bhau & Ijee

Ajay Padattil
18/01/2011

Monday 17 January 2011

But of the Butt..!!

The but of the Butt..!!

First part goes like this
First part should be the key

Listen to this critic shit
Listen to this damn symphony

When you would sing this cacophony
When you would change this system

Listen to the path we would choose
Listen to us & lament on togetherness

Enclose stuff like you'd pretend
Enclose us & you would still forsake

Ajay Padattil
16/01/2011

Wow..!!

When you & us were the mythology!!
When we would speak the tyranny

Which one of these is my realm
Which one of this is my reality!!

Where would I feature u & ijee
Where can I smear ink on our part

Whistlin things are the sanctity of mine
Whilst things should judge this time

Whichever steam would love this
Whichever was the untold in the dictionary

Wasting things would still forgive
We are here pushpy,ijee,tree me & inee.!!

Ajay Padattil
15/01/2011

Tuesday 11 January 2011

To You Guys!!

When the dreams come to cease
When the stars come to dream

When I said you were perfect I wasn't
When I said your life dreamt it wasn't me

When this pen could probably stop writin
When me & you would cease to exist

When me & bhau get together
When A-24 was a dream

Whn you & me live
I'd like that glitch
& you are just there

Ajay Padattil
...... infinity!!

Sunday 3 October 2010

The Ones I Loved…!!

As I would like to summarize my life in just two words….there is still an uncertainty to this very fact that I actually should..!!

Wouldn’t mean much at dis point in life but the very fact that time runs on and heaps of dust just doesn’t gather too much light still kind of seems a mystery…

The past & the present do go hand in hand & I agree to the very last bit that it does, but what do humans seek in time & beyond still lacks a true symphony…

Till the very last minute you do hope something arrives & it probably does….do you seem to be excited or more than just trust this sanctuary…

This is it was never meant to be a poem in the first place but rather a horn sounded to mankind to bring out the beast within so damn slowly…

This whole stanza didn’t start out as a poem to begin with but did end up as lines of a simile which I suppose I would decipher individually…

Looooooong time used to scream my lungs out so whole heartedly…it seems they have lost their power…

But the ones I truly loved…. Where you at.?!!

Ajay Padattil
03/10/2010

Wednesday 7 July 2010

The Bus..!!

Be it any class of a bus ride, I’ve always been fascinated with the very idea of the millions of faces you meet on em & the mannerisms you get to witness.

Right from the first bus that took me to the nursery I was enrolled in…..to the public transport… to my school bus & the latest being the bus I travel to my workplace in. All different shapes and sizes & colours so vivid that it gets your imagination runnin… both the passengers & the vehicles….lol

I remember in nursery there used to be this real naughty kid with a handkerchief dangling from his right pocket, typically pink with a few flowers adorning the borders. He never seemed to have his bottom side affixed to one particular seat in the vehicle, he seemed to have roller blades attached to his back…..Shakespeare would term it as obnoxiously Restless….lol…

And you reach your nursery…. Everybody shoving to get off & still some people living their dream not ready to accept that it is another day of discipline rather than fun…… that continues to this very day though… coz I was one of em in every aspect… I wonder if I had skates attached to my neck though….lol

Then there was the school bus where initially we were dressed smart in or whit & greys with a tie hangin like a noose around the neck, again living that very dream we were referring to a earlier..lol… But I always looked up in awe and excitement to those smart dudes in grey & grey christening them as seniors & wondered how would their shoes feel to be put into.(Only dudes coz we had a shift system..Boy the assembly time in school was hilarious..lol )

The driver of the bus was a sweetheart nevertheless… he was sumbody all kids would look up2 as a human being. Having lunch in a hurry ( My Mom used to fed me for a realllllllllly long time coz I was absolutely in love with the concept of eating you see…lol) … putting on your shoes…..managing to forget one book off your timetable… looking forward to the games period ( where we have almost 10 teams playing on the same football field…lol ) …waiting for the recess bell… savouring every moment of the aluminium cricket ball etc….. And this went on all the way from the 1st grade to the 12th grade ( Yep!!.... I was in the same school).

I almost forgot the bus I was to talk bout… initially it woz white in colour ( Non A/c) & evolved into a cassata ice cream coloured A/c bus at the end of my tenure as a senior in school. We always had a gang of people who were there all through my senior part of school.

Thru school , the characters & the mannerisms of all of us was almost the same….. the same age group & thought alike… all spoilt brats..hahaha.. All of us wondering when we would get ourselves promoted from white & grey to grey & grey ( As a kid though it was more white & blue)… What shall I say.. School Revamped…lol!!

During college though… the only bus I did travel in was the public transport. And now there start the mannerisms & characters & faces that I thought of writing about. The faces I must say varies from a really angry face to a face that could brighten up your morning. Characters vary from silent & sober to really noisy & irritating. Mannerisms range from real cute baby gestures to people struggling to survive.

The transaction of the ticket in a bus does bring most of these features to light. You might have a person who’d be shouting at the top of his voice coz he got into the wrong bus & the conductor issued him a wrong ticket…beat that…lol.

You have many other who realize its their mistake & opt to silently walk out when the closest bus stop arrives. Still others who are speaking to their neighbours as if they have known him/her before the Big Bang theory occurred. Many of them stuffing themselves into the bus even when the place for a needle to be pushed in would be a luxury … People hanging onto a bar on the footboard & speaking on their cell phones as if they were lying on a beach with a beer in their left hand … lol … But I always used to admire babies who are way away from all these emotions… I believe their reactions are more binary like… either you laugh or you cry .. That’s wot I call pure bliss.

And these buses I’d say would be something as ancient as the Himalayas probably…. A 0 percent guarantee that you would reach your destination in the speculated time or even an hour after… coz the probability of a breakdown is high.. lol.. They were red in colour initially though a couple of stripes in yellow & black were add ons at a later point in time…. PMT Revamped..!!

The most prominent feature of the office bus is SLEEP… a blissful one hour of cramped up but heavenly sleep early in the morning…lol..

Waking up a little late…. Hurrying through with your morning routines… having breakfast as if you’ve never seen edible stuff before…. Running down… watching school kids waiting for their buses (prominent green uniforms) …walking towards the bus to find fellow colleagues waiting for the Blue striped white bus or shall I say White striped blue bus (very confusing) with a printout(people call that a board) specifying SUS rd on it, waiting for everyone to board it.

We have the head of travel… without whom the bus wouldn’t move an inch… mine’s the first pickup on the route. It then proceeds to the next stop picking up people with a vivid sense of colours to dress themselves up. But overall it goes through about 8 to 10 stops all over the city before it hits the highway.

Here you have people who speak for a while, say bout 10-15 mins to your neighbours and immediately retire into “ Nidra” …blissful…lol ( I am one of em…. “ Not used to wakin up so early” …. Is the primary cause for this pleasurable experience…lol ) … Then you have people who feel reading a book with good music to soothen their morning is a gud entertainer…you still have more people who believe good music will see them through a torturous one hour roller coaster… then there are others cursing fate for giving them a laptop to work on & carry. The way people search for seats as soon as they board the bus is a sight worth witnessing…. Then the final set would be people who have been sitting close to each other for years now but haven’t spoken a word… lol!!

When you leave for the day you have to literally search for the bus that would reach you back home. The 18:00 bus is okie… coz you’l get home in a jiffy (One hour).. The 19:00 bus takes you on a city tour with the traffic of another IT park cutting of the roads. There’s another one at 20:00… which I haven’t had the luck of experiencing. The 18:00 is white in colour with a green board. The 19:00 is the confusing blue & white.

The main agenda for the evenings too is blissful “ Nidra”.. lol the routes are different but I must say very well organized for an organization encompassing a figure of close to 2000 employees in the middle of nowhere.

I always wonder as to how everything comes around a whole full circle! From the colour white … From being a school kid waiting for the bus to watching kids waiting when u still are going to catch the vehicle. Experiences like this BUS I’m sure are many more & would be awesome to Rewind… Play… Stop… Play…. & it goes on!!

CheerS!!

Ajay Padattil
06/07/2010

After A While..!!

When you do live life a bit outta the normal
Why would you sip on sacrifice as outta dimal

Winning tones would still carry a bicycle
Wasting times slam a stamp of Popsicle

Whistlin by still seems the hands of time
Whalin life would be the slimes of time

When I would foresee the whims of symphony
Whoa!! I’d still name my stern cacophony

Whilst my mood my Mom says yeah!!
Withering spirits would still say nyyyy!!

Wounded & Down would this night be!!
While away time I think we will tally!!

Ajay Padattil
19/06/2010

Friday 28 May 2010

The Journey..!!

The transition phase could alwayz be tough for a human being....be it from a kid to teens,to adolescence to adulthood ( haven't reached that far yet). Sumbody once said you are as young as you feel deep inside... Me alwayz used to ponder bout dat one... but never did get the answer to “ Why.?!”.

The toughest I would say is the time when you go from being a graduate or a PG'ite to a professional ...haven't worried bout it till today...as usual uncertain bout it the future...but who wants to think.?!Live it for the next damn second... if you can...i.e.!!

Went to school, a typical nice sweet lil life... of course cheap thrills never left space for remorse...Straight from that very wheel of warp...ppl do feel “ Damn.! What am I goin to do wid it (life) this time?!..lol

When you do enroll into college..the fear of “What it'd look like” is alwayz there... but I could proudly say one thing....till this date...College Rocked for bout 10years to be precise right now...lol....loving this organization nd gonna miss it ( my partners in crime)..

The city truly never gave nethin back to me nor the professionalism in the Enterprise that I looked for did...but...the people...the emotions.... the kind of space & freedom & experiences & the relations& the insanity of the sanctity of work & the ethics of humanity & the absoluteness of being oneself & the pure emotion of equality & the bluntness & the openness & HUMANS.... would def give any other enterprise a run for its money..coz here, everything just works on the basis of trust, space, humanity & love for existence.

I'd say kudos to the human who put forth the idea “ It's not the place, but the people that make this earth worth living “...and to think that I'm gonna be throwing all this away in just bout a week and a half pinches me... coz me gotta accept the very fact that “ Padam isnt gonna be called Padam anymore”... more names but nothin would mean as much as “ Padam”... This is one of my assumptions which I'm sure for the first time in my life that I's gonna bloody feel like “ I hope sumbody would address me the same”... sumday.!!

But then again tonight, I console myself saying... ain't the world just a sphere flattened at the poles & boy I'm just an STD code away....lol. I definitely am gonna miss the greenery for sure.

The Enterprise .... I wouldn't say never gave me that I was lookin for... or did actually give me exactly what I was lookin for... Probably a manufacturing defect... or I wasn't sure of what I was lookin for or even more than probably I was born indecisive...lol.

Ask me to plan something & I'd wash my hands clean of it coz frankly speakin I can go with the flow but creatin the flow isn't my piece of cake....hehehehe

Comin to being the professional, I guess the incident that outdid me was being stuck in one place for over a year for absolutely no reason whatsoever.

But as I'd heard sumplace... “ The show must go on!!”.. I wouldn't say “ I'm not scared but still excited” to go to the new place ( hometown ,,,,but my profile jus took a 360 )...lol... Uncertainty sounds good... but for one time in my life I feel deep down within...my past is gonna keep my spirits up.!

Finding solace in jus a couple of words isn't convincing enough.... “ Technically not feasible” was the mantra at one point of time until I realized “ Nothing is impossible” & I picked it... got screwed.... but enjoyed every moment of that very technology that I'd have to live with at least for a quarter of my life.

And here is a human who at the age of 25 thought that there was just one definition for love bifurcating into millions of atoms just to find out love is pure.... nd its just not one.... it is like an entire new variation of the Rainbow.... VIBGYOR I'd learnt as a kid but I'd say with the rainbow of life that I'd decipher VIBGYOR would be just the primary colours... Mix em up & you'd get shades you haven't dreamed of ever..!!!

Me sounding lame already huh.?!.. As alwayz...the source for this piece of thing that one of my buddies would question as “ What were you stoning on?!”..is unknown...lol

A professional degree is essential...a preconceived notion... but I'd say your first experience with the pawns of the industry is what actually moulds your soul to face the rest of the globe & boy I've had one heck of soul searching in my present organization.... just too cool.. And the kind of support that your peers offer is unparalleled .

Getting a feel of the street smart world is sumthing I carved outta college but carrying it all thru till the end of this little epic that I had in “ God's Own Country”.. nd took me through all the north, the south, the very subcontinent the world addresses.

Today I can proudly say that I have the confidence to face even a top official in an organization & speak to him without the fear of me being just an insignificant pair of dice in a decider.!

Listen to what life has to offer, dream of tomorrow, live for today.... last for the next second...breathe now... enjoy history.. economics were for the presidents..geography was for dreamers & I lived today... looking for tomorrow & my journey streams on.!! Till next time...!!

CheerS!!

Ajay Padattil
28/05/2010

Thursday 20 May 2010

Screw em Up..!!

And yet another time... this title & the story behind this one was inspired. You don't have to guess dis one... Kovalam... beer...pubs...technical...import duties...lovely times....bengalluru...new years....my man in trivandrum & this globe is too small... an indica.... self ESTEEM...lovely idol of krishna adorning the very rooftop of this dudes house.... fashion trends...cinema...house music...trippiest of times ...& I can go on... this was my inspiration.

The title was a situation when you go out & out on something but sumthing strikes you very sorrily to stare in your face& tell you one thing....you were never a link in the chain!!

When you actually give something to an organization & u do expect it to give you sumthin in return for the first time in your life....a small thing... probably just the case of one damn day... and the organization says “ I have to think & will get back to you”...I feel lie the people I have been selling its ( pronounced “ The Organization's”) skill sets when I knew It was worth emeralds but I still could deliver Rubies.... but I dint bother with the rubies coz its my family I'm talking bout & representing here.

Today or shall I say “ Yesterday” woz the day I truly thought the saying “ No Organization Shut coz the resources quit” felt so close to my heart that I regret so much so that I have to bring out the stupid consultant in me to my organization as well. HELL!! Its best to keep personal away from business 4 damn sure..!!

Today just confirmed my worst fears of turning into a pawn in the system, when a job that I was given... put my 100% for the first time in my epic saga with this family & godmother just decided to turn the tables SAFELY!!.. Thought alwayz that there would've been a reason for this to happen.. But an entire 24 hrs couldn't convince me I was right about the reason part.

Never did wanna leave on a bad note.... and I shouldn't ...Coz I don't like the corporate part of me... coz that just isnt ME or US or WE...but I guess like Mr. Anil Kapoor says during the climax of the movie 'Nayak'.. 'Aakhir Aapne Mujhe Politician Ban Hi Diya na..?!'... True to the very last 'na'!

A journey that lasted sweet three years & I would dedicate the spirit of my living thru, these to my soulmates HAAAL, my sweethearts '12' & my 'Godmother'. Sweet Sweet experiences & stories & times... I'd cherish forever.!


Another quote that I alwayz pondered on was “ Criminals are never born, situations make them that”.. I never believed in this crap until today... just that my weapons would be denial and distrust. Revenge is never an answer to anything.

“ Screw em Up!!”.. I wish I could, would & should. But I guess when you are a famliy, you gotta forgive and forget... But again I aint GOD... nd none of us are. But me I'd say to myself... Let these times pass ,for we have the past with this ancestorial joy to live upon.!

Ajay Padattil
20/05/2010

Wednesday 14 April 2010

Astounding..!!

Drawn apart by two swords distinct
Dim seems the light that lights the crystal

Laying off things that meant the world to humans
Laggin still seems the past for one tomorrow

Listenin to instances far & narrow
Lamenting on icebergs tippin off for heat

Degrees & counting claim lives of innocence
Diminishing families still cry these prayers

Amazing would be listing melodies
Astounding scream people in the 70's

Love life & grasp these moments
Live happy & gloat this very second.!

Ajay Padattil
14/04/2010

Wednesday 7 April 2010

View This..!!

Listing things that most humans would look scornfully at i.e. hate, loyalty, weakness, caste, money, racism, discrimination, class, emotions, bluntness etc... Aint all of this stuff purely materialistic..?! If it isnt then its human to want more. If it is... then probably its close to “ Welcome aboard”.

When I do think bout stuff like racism or discrimination for that matter, its something which would relate closely to a belief which some people would call unreal & some others would call stupidity.

Forrest Gump once said “ Stupid is as stupid does”. I never did contemplate on that dialogue or never did I stop to wonder what he would've actually meant reciting dat piece of literature.

But tonight I do realize one thing.... that piece of literature was something which would tell the world “ The thing that you are is exactly the thing that you do”... or as they say in Shakespearean Language” As you sow so shall you reap”...to put it more bluntly, “ If you do stupid stuff you are stupid”...” if you do idiotic stuff ...you are an idiot”...”if you do logical stuff...you never are practical”...

Well I've run outta philosophy & words coz my dictionary is kinda exhausted & like a friend of mine said “ Gimme a copy of ur dictionary & I'd probably try to figure out half of wot u wanted to say..!! lol”.

My fault “ My pen isnt runnin outta ink”..My fault “ I try to stupify stuff”... Again this is the predecessor to the state of mind I would classify as “ blanatha” but I guess the whole thing is worth it.

The sun would shine tomorrow... The moon would still borrow.. If you & I live still in sorrow... Damn this burrow... Earth is narrow... I'd still Maro.?!

Ajay Padattil
27/03/2010

Tuesday 16 March 2010

Beginning..!!

Beginning to believe the landships of earth
Beginning to feel the smartness of Aliens by heart

Beginning to think of life from a different perspective
Beginning to mend ways to start differently

Beginning to gaze at the blue skies & wish purity
Beginning to wonder when oxygen would be regenerated

Beginning to worry about the future first
Beginning to put the past behind few tunes

Beginning to treat things & prioritize
Beginning to wish life was a little fairer

All the above mentioned things are for angels
We still continue to live as the neighbour of the beast..!!

Ajay Padattil
16/03/2010

Peter Paul & MARY.. v miss ya.!!

I was walking down that path again
Which surely screamed no pain no gain

The whistle blows way away from here
A lemon tree so yellow its still satire

Blowing in the wind did shoot up lives
Puff the magic dragon sings one tonite

The Wedding Song did top the charts oh so well
When I die the world will cry & it did so swell

Leaving on a jet plane stirs ones symphony
I dig Rock n Roll plays different Adamantly

Started this out as lyrics for a melody
Couldn't stop myself from a tribute to her....Mary!!

Ajay Padattil
16/03/2010

Friday 12 March 2010

Main Aur Meri Methyl Alcohol.!!

During my school days, in the chemistry lab I did hear of this element called ' Methyl Alcohol '. I used to wonder why this was called so when Alcohol was considered to be an evil substance. My curiosity was at its epitome when I learnt that this decomposes straight into something called 'ethyl alcohol' which at a later point in life would be known as THE SPIRIT.

Probably why people call it evil is because if consumed in large amounts this could prove fatal in many ways both to oneself & to the other souls too.The fatality caused to oneself could be summarized as one or more organs failing to function or to simply put it “ Screwed”. The fatality to other souls could come in many forms, the first being accidents.

The wind I've heard enhances the very essence of this substance called alcohol after consumption. The swaying of a human is bound to happen if consumed in smaller but large amounts leading to the state we call the “ Unknown”. In this state a human finds his home on a footpath or even places which would be unknown to him the following morning.

The good thing about this element is it is not biased i.e. gender no bar, caste no bar, religion no bar etc.... lol.

The other state of mind after consumption would culminate in violence ( I haven't understood the base of this emotion to date...lol ). When this emotion is triggered, a state of superiority complex & extreme power takes control of the human mind or so they say...lol. It causes people to behave in such an annoying manner coz they think they r supreme & the iceberg that titanic hit sounds like a spot on the moon.

The reactions in the morning would consist of amnesia, Blanatha & to some.... a sever headache ( feels the head is too damn heavy to carry).

This word “ Blanatha” was an addition to my dictionary very recently. It is defined as the slow feeling, lack of enthusiasm felt by a human body and mind in the morning after an overdose of “ Ethyl Alcohol “ during the previous night..lol

The headache state of affairs could be summed up as a HANGOVER which most define as situations varying from falling randomly asleep to a headache so huge that a shark bite would sound minuscule.

On an empty stomach, the SPIRIT seems to kick in more easily & results in the complete “ SWITCH OFF ” of a human body progressing into a world only that human can define at that particular point in time.

Some say, it also triggers music into the soul & mind. I've been there, done that & OH! Its true to the very last ”C”.

It does feel beautiful to speak to people you care about. A sense of truthfulness is ushered in without a doubt. Things & emotions are mixed so neatly that it just seems perfect.

A social gathering some might call certain nights when you can't enjoy your drink & end up prancing up and down with jus that drink to adorn your fingers. All sophisticated crap...lol.

Then there are times whe you decide a couple of em are good enough but end up sleeping the next day. At these times stuff that were never talked about previously crop in & a discussion happens ( this would put the UN conferences to shame..lol). Decisions made, journeys to go on, places to see & newer “ Glassmates” is what we refer to this in our countryside.

I would end this here coz of various reasons , the first one being “ Blanatha”.!

CheerS!!

Ajay Padattil
12/03/2010

Thursday 11 March 2010

Smashin.!!

Willow would sound this scratch from d master blade
With the greener pastures callin out to the very bright nd talented

Wastin time would still seem like a distant horizon
Softly but sweetly blast from the past say some

Wallowed within so many gusts of this symphony sounds unfair yea.?!
Withered within these winnin spirits would darken todays and nites

Winners all say some ppl outta der minds but sane
Participate and all r winners speak the logic which sounds absurd

Wade along the swans of the lame lake of joy
Morgan's law of averages still shines bright as the moon

Lost in the sanity of this moment and i still remain indebted to the sunrise
Lavishly tho... i would gather all the courage to face the very brunt of idiocracy

Standing tall still seems like a beat too far for this beast
Will i pay for this one or shall sarcasm rule the ozone layer.?! lol.!

Smashin stuff still talk the heads of this moment
Swiflty but elegantly this phase passes by..!

Play these babies like they would never live for tomorrow
Hold em like dey would live yesterday in lieu of Today.!!

Ajay Padattil
11/03/2010

Wednesday 10 March 2010

No cast, No religion, Human bar baar..!!

Kabhi mushkile aise aati hai ki
Kaash humse koi itne paas rehte ki

Kam hamesha lage ye waqt phir bhi
Kaise bhoole ek “ Baby on Board”?!

Kitna khaas lagta hai yeh sama par
Khafa honge duniya ke bohot log aaj phir

Knives & Jumps did adorn the past two days
Kickass smiles still brighten the day tonight

“ Kaise” would still doubt most phir bhi
“ Kando” ennu parayum people who see abhi

“ Kasa Aahes!” still asks me to this day
Bara aahes, Sugam, Mast hai! unite this galaxy

Ajay Padattil
10/03/2010

Monday 8 March 2010

The Veranda of Elite.!

I'm starting dis at d veranda of a medical trust which is scorching hot in d middle of d very summer dat every human being detests tobe a part of... does this mean v would cease 2 live.?! V jus look 4 dat one soothing breeze dat eminates 4m d one invention v would thank another bright human 4.. As I woz sittin here right from where d sun was burnin 2 d moon givin d heat a run for its money, I hav realised one thing.. d human life can change in jus a fraction of a second..4m a family whose mom sent shivers down everybodys spine durin a weddin 2 my very own blood who couldnt sleep a while ago due to a blasted tyre...and 2 me after all des yrs..still grazing d corridors of a hospital...but dis time I aint d victim..ppl say thank god its jus this much...but iv been thru dat much previously spoken of and it isnt jus dat much...lol..it actually kills u 2 think of all the oder fab souls dat ease ur way thru jus dat much and d troubles u put em thru. But then again u hav a shameless being lyin within u 2 xplore even newer horizons of shamelessness...nd der is another dat is willing to learn from d bitter shameless nd irresponsible being nd graduate 2 another stage that beings refer to as maturity...again 2 many levels 2 think about...2 much at dis wee hr... but at d end of d day if d balance between d 2 are made..i guess it isnt 2 bad..d shamelessness would ensure d mischief factor nd maturity would ensure d naughty living organism not goin overboard....stupid concept...but yea.. chose it, live it, reap it...CheerS!

Ajay Padattil
15/03/2010

Infamously Blind..!

A change isn't a matinée
A life aint a mystery

A smashing pane aint a daisy
A swift leave isnt too blunt a flimsy

A junkie would play so many tunes
A film would put so many tunes

A chic melody would b anatomy
A drift would blow some wind

A cacophony would bristle 2 many brushing rants
A hit 2 many could read the head upset

A lane 2 far sings d piano
A question 4ever speaks a symphony

A word would keep me corporate!

Ajay Padattil
09/02/2010

Friday 12 February 2010

Weeks..Gone by.!!

Two weeks of glory would actually seem too much for me to handle...but theses two weeks were truly vociferous .

I'l start with a Thursday, coz most of the other days in a week still seem a mystery to me. Call it kerala or the capital...lol...Thursday I guess did divulge a sense of drained thoughts &heartless when a human being did give me company virtually as dawn breaks into something which would soothe me till this second... The human did leave me midway tho...lol (Hint ..hint..!!)

the next day from 8 to 6 was pretty eventful with all the “Chai & Sutta” breaks...a lotta smiles gone bewilder & songs to sing & technology to fulfill... The time after about say 7 was one of those unforgettable nights when Mr Jayachandran as I would call him joined us in the wee hrs right before he had to bid bon voyage to all of us since we were trippin on his booze after the dark sinner with coke we had already given up on...lol.

The night doesnt seem to end there...with more of the dark sinner glorifying our sinister times before which a lotta technical stuff,industry specific dreams glazing the very breeze of this moment...Exports, Excise.... I wouldnt dare to reveal but what a night that could unravel.

The following nights would be saga in itself. A whole day of uselessness until the afternoon where my soul mate drives right into my porch & walks in with a sly smile sayin “ Macha...how bout some beer to spice the blaring hot *#@$*@in sun.?!”.... And I was known to never say “ No..!!”. & so began the “ super strong” journey to the windmills & beyond.

“ walkable distance” & “ truly Disappointing” still rings to this date when a twisted ankle & waterfalls were the only hope of a trip that, bought in dreams of “ Indira Gandhi” & ” Sharukh Khan”. Windy... Oh yes.!! Windy as hell was that night.

The trip back... The “ puttu” & “ Mutton Char”...Boy.. would be one unforgettable experience to sum up acting the press, borrowing shampoo, peein in the most unsolicited places , sacrificing the one thing humans would value the most... individualism...not to portray blasphemy... after all I got Mr Guruvayuraapan& Mr Jesus Christ adorning my neck..hehehehe.

The next week I guess did go pretty eventful with all the breaks that I did talk bout earlier but I guess I was a daft bit caught up wid issues of my own which would take an eternity to reiterate at this point ( Did you know “ reiterate” was a synonym for “Duplicate”...lol)

And comes the Friday. Now i'm actually confused as to whether I should “ Thank God it's Friday” or not... But this one I would definitely be grateful for... Ask me Why.?!

I got to witness one of the marriages of a lifetime as I would consider the groom to be the loveliest, most amazingly true to believe humans in this era& beyond.... Anuroop is his name & hayabusa is his game... the bride was the most cheerful darling of a gal I have seen in one so many of my 27( too small) age..lol.

“ Made for each other”.. would be an understatement... “ Perfect.. Impossibly Correct & Suited” would best fit this couple. My happiness knew no bounds as i'd gone down for their engagement ages ago when i'd decided I had to see this marriage & the reception for myself.

As I told a sweetheart of mine “ I wish the camera could capture all those moments a human eye could!!”. I actually wish all of you could see what I did. Perfection, Happiness, Innocence, Purity, Sanity, Togetherness, Brightness, Bliss....I'm running short of words as to how I would sum the very experience.

And yet another week passes by strumming on my harps of being busy & being happy.... But i'd say, the sweetheart would brighten my days of humidity & my soul mate would be the very essence of this effect.

A brief stint in chennai & back would actually bring me back to the professional I didn't want to be , but “ Kismat hai G*@&$du to Kya Karega Pandu” types...lol... And I'm back....hehehe

“Everybody's definitely got their comfort zone” says “ some wise men”...True... False.. Suit yourself i'd says I..!!

The week hasn't passed, and its Thursday... I'm actually writing in this diary, the page of which says 29th January 2009 & beat the coincidence.... its a Thursday too...lol.

An eventful day where I did login to gmail at approx 4:30 pm ..coz..
1.I wasnt on my seat ( As Alwayz)
2.I had work( once in a while)
3.I had some work ( Most of the time)
4.I had a hell lotta work ( Once in a blue moon)

The (4) was my case today & the sweetheart I'd mentioned a while ago was impossibly busy, my soulmate was not in town& the man with the plan( a new character) would be off for 2 months flat...lol

The dusk happens & we all have to set out ona voyage none of us have foreseen or planned( I love this ind of an expedition).. We reach... Welcomed with one of the best mango juices in human history... Foray on a walk in the Car.. Couple of spirits adorning our evening.. asilent breeze to foretell our existence... We reach back... Greeted warmly with some fresh “ Kallu” & “ chicken”... a few minutes we get to sniff the warm trinkets of the dark sinner again... this time it was imported. Boy was it smooth. Another dude was actually hooked & we go to witness it tomorrow.

Hospitality at its best... Events falling out as dominoes would be ashamed to assemble... ridin back... a lot of words ( not hateful but playful) exchanged... Lotta people switching places to hold those 4 gears... Lotsa vehicles moving side by side... As my friend would put it & of so befitting.

“To express friendship, one should alwayz strangle another neck while he's driving”.

Eventful, was it, is it,,, would it be & I would say YES!!!!

A trail of thoughts, Two weeks of happening stuff... A wheel full of surprises... Dashingly surprising.

All Random words put together from a dictionary huh.?!?!
CheerS!
Ajay Padattil
05/02/2010

Thursday 21 January 2010

Still..!!

Erased half of my memories I would say.
Erasing more than half of my utmost desires.
Erasing mighty 80% of fantasies I'd learn to live without.
Easing thoughts flowing through my veins right now.
A singing mystery still to conquer would be a dream too far.
Sing a tune which sounds bugles to one too many.
“ Ing “ is something we would add to most of the events that would be the present.
“ ng “ would summarize “ not given” to most of us living this time.
“ g ” pronounced in Hindi would either mean “ Yes Sir” or “ Yes Ma'am ”..hahahah!!

When we do fill our life with dreams which sound good hypothetically, we wonder “ What if.!? ” or “ If it was, nothing better !!” . And then at some points in life, we do feel that this is the time every lavish performer fulfills the luxurious dominance to the fullest. Dreams & fancies have always been something every human would love to live across.

What have humans dreamt of always remains a mystery to me. Lot of faces, Lot of characters, Lot of thoughts would speak of a totally different point in this regard.

Some would actually dream of a big house, a big car, a cute wife, a decent fortune, a flourishing career etc... Al; the points I'd talk bout in the previous sentence seems to be a common factor for all the homosapiens we know, yea?! ( The wifes could also be translated to a husband as you may please)

I still wonder bout what the penguins would do if all the glaciers in Antarctica melt on one fine day.?!

I still wonder what a squirrel would do( for that matter humans too) if the temperature blasts past 50 degrees average?!

I still wonder as to what the trees would do if there is actually an ozone hole created all over the earth?!

I still wonder, if the solar eclipse can never be witnessed again, what would happen to the sun.?!

I still wonder where a road would end without a street light to adorn it.?!

I still wonder, if 30 % of the earth is the ocean why isn't 70 % of what we see be the beaches.?..lol

I still wonder what causes the echo in an empty room just as it sounds off a cliff.?!

All these I guess are just elements of life which ;life has no answers to, but are accepted as something that would always be designated as “ Let it happen & we'll see where it goes”..lol

Wake up..Tip off..Save the penguins..Save the earth..Save our home...aaaaah.!! Hello!!..lol

Ajay Padattil
20/01/2010

Friday 15 January 2010

Why..?!

Why is it alwayz an adventure when people actually say “NO” to a thing.?!

Why is the earth not a plain sphere.?!

Why would most of the people curse religion when the basic sound of trust has disappeared ?!

Why has listenin to your heart been replaced with logic?!

Why has oxygen become the most important thing humans ever wanted?!

Why have people turned from Classic Rock to Death Metal?!

Why has death become the most terrifying thing when you've got your whole life to ahead?!

Why has time travel alwayz been a myth when the past seems unforgettable.?!

Why “would” “will” “was” “want” “wish” “will” have alwayz been elements of doubt.?!

Why did the dinosaurs grow extinct when our future generations would still speak about them?!

Why are bats blind but still can negotiate & traverse paths a human still strives to.?!

Why is an Apple called an Apple when “ A” could've been sumthing else.?!

Why are the primary colors still Red Blue Green.?!

Why is Why called Why..Who is the first to have discovered doubt.?!

Why did Adam eat that apple.?!

Why hasn't rest of the apple been found if half of it is in a man's throat.?!

Why don't parallel lines meet ever even if we tried to concur it.?!

Why does '0' on the left have no value.?!

Why doesn't a frog think like a human as just another being.?!

Why are rabid dogs rabid.?!

Why do we use the phrase “ Why on earth!!” to summarize something negative.?!

“Why”...So many tales to tell& still remains a mystery to me as to why there are so many “ Whys” in the planet of the most intelligent beings(humans).

Does this mean our knowledge has actually got its limits(boundaries) or extra-terrestrial, paranormal activity does leave us in awe?!

Ajay Padattil
15/01/2010

Immortality ..A Gift or A Curse.!!

An Eternity to fulfill & I's be scanty
An owl lying low & I'd be array

Nothing talking beastly but I'd sacrifice
Nothing scandalizing but I'd say happening

Left the whole sarcasm apart
Left the bystanders loving still smart

Mentioning the hands of the spirit worthwhile
Mentioning the leaps of daffodils meanwhile

Souls of lasting memories still bind
Souls of breached arrows stand kind

Gladly so & I would foresee
Gladly speakin of those Random Galantry

Random giftless times still I live
Random smiles to see & yet I conceive

Drifting waves of the sun tomorrow
Drifting breeze of the lapse so hollow

Immortality sounds a hefty price to pay
Immortality defines tomorrow but live 4 today.!!

Ajay Padattil
15/01/2010

Tuesday 12 January 2010

Life is Glorious ....(Part V).!!

And I begin my journey in2 the new year not 2009 but 2010 & whoa!! wot a begin to it.

I sit & watch as people come & go. Restlessness probably like one of my friends wrote as he started out on a new venture, probably something every human would try to at the begin of every year that seems to be new & promising. “ Manchaadikootam” he named it & so. He says its a collection of memories( naughty & not). And I must say he has written it most damn beautifully. This is when you feel that just like music, even ideas have no barriers I.e. language to be specifically pointed out at.

As he reiterated his experiences right from his grandma being an elegant & poise lady to the very fact that he still is growing into a nostalgic cyst of a creature waiting to break out from his shell to explore the newer horizons that probably this galaxy is worth more than. It is amazing though when you start to write, you wonder what,when, where, why you gonna begin at and it jus ends up as one heck of a creation that even you would probably rub your nose into & relise the anomaly this would probably unravel.

Its the shouts of glory & excitement that ushers in every 1st of January. Some wander around having absolutely no sense of whats going on in and around the same vicinity that one stands, still others sleeping their way into the new year.

Amazingly so, the human brain does end up instructing the heart to do what he/she loves to do at that very moment. The human brain too is a force to reckin with, rather NOT!!..lol... coz even the minimal amount of excitement prediction, medium quantities of smashing, maximum effect of sarcasm would be handled in different extremities of the very same prism.

The transition phase of the adolescence to adult could probably be the most difficult phases a human would live to see. I would categorize this period as anywhere between two years to 5 & a half years.

Nothing between these years seem right for some but for another sect of humans this would be the bible, yet another clan would call it the rest of the apple Mr. Adam ( Technically Father of the nation called earth) ate. The rest of the generation would just live it like they have lived it up for the past 22 ½ years.

Its funny sometimes all those influx of weird iddeas that come into the head at this point in time, the transition period i.e.. As I was watching a movie which spoke of three such humans who didn't think of sleeping or guidelines & cooked up this idea of “Why couldn't we just use pencils instead of spending a fortune trying to create an ink which wouldn't solidify in the absence of air”..lol.

When I was passing thro. The same phase, low waist apparels, jazzy belts, funky watches were the stuff thought to be the most sought after & to admit I was one of them & boy did I enjoy it.... oops forgot the hair stuck with glue ( Gel Humans called it). I still wonder how all of these mattered the world to certain humans ( Not excluding myself).

Call it Idiocy, madness, vanity..would come close to this phase. Probably when eminem, Tupas & puff daddy set the floor on fire. Wot did they call it den? “ Yo! Momma! Lets shake some booty Yo!!”...hahahah. The greeting note of “ SSSsssssup!!” stands strong to this day.

An ode to joy were those days if you'd ask me . A huge gang of people still waiting to ask their “ True Love” for a cup of coffee and still others enjoying their drink with complete random strangers who'l have a story to tell later on & so many other random characters knowing not where their life would end up & straining to live life for this very split second.

For most people this is either the time dey'd graduated from any course they were pursuing until this very moment. Some others struggling to rid themselves of the same very course enjoying everything except the books...lol ( I laughed at myself on this one)

Making my foundation strong would be my justification & I so love cheap thrills...lol.

But probably this was the time which inspired a no books, no authoring, no literature, confused idiot to pick up his pen & glorify these moments.

Broke many a bones & minds of millions of unnoticing bystanders. Confusion about where to fit in probably was the criminal...hahahha... (Again Cheap Thrills).

Me, my sis & my dad invented a completely new language , a new story to live in & it still holds strong as I write this too... I'd probably speak of it at a later point in time. This whole book wouldn't suffice for the sheer glory of that saga.

Awsome scintillating deodorants, perfumes, nicotine sticks would accompany most of the confused but blissful beings of that hour. Butterflies in the stomach when the alluring beauty of the opposite sez breezes by would add sum glamour to ice this note.

The feeling of the butterflies rumbling or much rather fluttering could also be gained outta a roller coaster but then it wouldn't stimulate your mind & heart alike as well.

Lotta notions put your mind & heart in doubt at this very point ( As rejection is outta the question & you've just been crowned Mr/Ms Universe or sumthin...lol). Some actually gather up all the guts to go up2 the best thing you've ever witnessed & say sumthing which would be an exact antonym of what one was planning an eternity on preparing. This phase could briefly be annoted & erased as “ The Making-A-Fool-Of Phase”. Brings back memories.??!...lol.

Later on in life when you look at stuff like these, they do definitely bring a smile ( The curve that sets things straight) back to your busy face....lol.

This Making-A-Fool-Of phase does turn out to be fruitful for some goin ahead & making a family outta it. Still others have many a more Making-A-Fool-Of & still manage to stay single at the end of it. Blissful bachelordom aint it?!...hahah

Till then I.le. When you do manage to get a “Yes” which delivers you from the “ Making-A -Fool-Of” phase, you find out that all the people who would've never glanced at you for a second time deliver n no. of glances makin your deliverer scan your ethics..lol. That too is a fun phase when you do actually fool around just to see that change of expression.

Having a gang, partying the night out do tend to leave nostalgic scars which even if tried to erase( which you shouldn't) just doesn't seem to leave you.

Millions of excuses made to your creator, screwing around with any living being to have set foot on earth,feeling the deep breath grazing your shoulders, the dryness of the throat, the butterflies in your stomach, the high speed thrill trips, the wildest of screams, the beautiful but real chaos of emotions, the want to do so much but falling short of time would sum up the fact that life ain't no pain, its pure glamorous....Oops! Glorious... CheerS!!

Ajay Padattil
11/01/2010

Monday 4 January 2010

Bygones & Silhouettes..!!

Wellness & Bright talks this year forth
A Blissful stride north would breathe now

Go ahead pull your horns & pack your stuff
Lazily tho & too good to be true

A night marred by rain but successful
Unplanned but fantabulous still a mystery

A pack of sweethearts dancing to your tunes
A dozen nicotine sticks to deny the Jizzy

Living up the next day sounds a timothy
Living spirits still sing a merry lamb

Twinkles scream the guy on the next table
Tequila scream us on this conference

A walk downtown with lights bedazzling
Porrota & Butter chicken seal the night

Mr Monk did enlighten s a bit too much
Tabs played would sink in deep & so

As my soulmate & me did dissolve these ahead
Silent shadows lurk still in the woods

Happy new year sounds 1 day after
The day to celebrate still sounds strong

The year promising a lifetime of happiness
Join me & the devil shall forgive.!!

Ajay Padattil
02/01/2010

Wednesday 30 December 2009

Life is Glorious ( Part IV )..!!

Living life for about 27 yrs now would seem like a real loooong period to somebody who wouldn't have found the “ Bodh Gaya”...the “ Amrit Pathr”.. the “ immortality” that every human being or a living organism looks for ( The impact of having biology till bout the 10th std!!..lol ).; To me , I gues, without being any of those eternal beings, living life was just an edge of the ccube we would call an “ Isomateism” .

“Is” would be an “isotope” .... “ tomate” sounded a lot like the “TOMATO” I ate earlier tonite & “ ism” is something that scientists alwayz designated a disease...lol..!!... to be blunt & true.... Analyzing the whole word, it means “ I lived it up to this second...wouldn't worry bout the next”.

When we pass through the 16 to 20 , we alwayz wonder how cool the snow would be or how awsome a nightout should be or how mindblowing the celebrity life could get. Looking at all those experiences, I wouldn't blame anybody who wished to be an actor, anchor, co-star , villain , a henchman, a side artiste, a dancer, a politician, a musician, a petitioner for the heck of it. All those kinda pressed against one fact... “ GLAMOUR”.

Owning a car, rampaging arounf the whole city, making the loudest of noises that the human ear would explode at, livin every 31st of december with ' Wine & Dine”, walking around with a cell phone, Breaking window panes, Savaging to the extent of the society stamping you an outcast, all of this would definitely bring all of these four years to one retrospect, labelling me or you as one heck of a teenager...lol.

I seriously have no idea how to proceed with this prose..lol.. but nevertheless I did feel like penning down dome worthless, useless, crappy words which I would call an outburst of adrenaline which I could've spent doing sumthing else (not worthwil) but dedicated ( NOT..!!!) to these random words which Shakespeare would mistake for “ Literature Gone Wrong..!!” ...hahahaha

Jeopardy, Dilemma, Confusion would define or much rather summarize wot a human would feel through these 4 years. But these four years actually do play the hero / heroine in life as to how it would proceed & shape up.

Movies, Dialogues, People, Situations, The spirit, the moon, the floor, the illumination, the ambience & a million other reasons which kinda inspired me to write bout sumthing so trivial.

“Impossible is something that I haven't taught her..!!” is one of those things that spun this wheel of insanity & it did( Surprise Surprise....!!).

Leaving these four years would definitely be tough but as sumbody said “ the only thing that one can't leave behind is Age”... the physicality of the situation has got absolutely nothing to do with the mental illness we call “ Zeal” tho....for life...lol.

Lamenting on past times nor the future actually sufficed for any of those aspirations that a human found necessary. This is for just a simple reason that thepresent would definitely look like this second, which you would repeat...if defined bygones.

Life would definitely sound glorious...past these 4 years that I was harping on uselessly...lol... but .....Wohooooo.!! Take 4 of these away from anybody & wouldn't you have misssed an eternity of Frolic.!?!

Ajay Padattil
30/12/2009

Tuesday 29 December 2009

Relive the Beauty..!!

Glorification of history seems a mystery
Bifurcation of liberty seems a reality

Smashed spinners would weave a miracle
Laden speeds still a sinister trinket

Bells of gold & Silver flying through the deep
Woods so green & millions of words they speak

A path that treads itself into the unseen
a bridge descending still into the foreseen

The mornings with the sun so bright
The nights with the moon so shy

Slamming myths of the beast within
Shocking flings with the breeze forgiving

As history repeats itself over the name
Beautiful scenes bedazzle to this day.!!

Ajay Padattil
27/112/2009

Sunday 20 December 2009

Life is Glorious ( Part III )..!!

Maybe the previously written sarcasm would be so out of tune that I myself wouldn't be able to decipher.

Waste of words would be more like it & the English language sounds like an absolute waste of energy.

This time I think it should deal with sumthing which wouldn't lose the essence of the lollipop but would still beckon with pool & billiards or snooker as you would love to call it.

Growing up wasn't too difficult a task as I would trace my 27 years back to the time I found lollipops an element of absolute bliss.

Being caught stealing words
Being caught watching porn
being caught runnin away from boring lectures
Being caught trying to smuggle a note across a lotta peers to the one gal you cared about
Being caught speakin about sumthing trivial but so damn exciting as you try acting the adolescence bur still raging on puberty
Being caught trying to extend just 5 minutes of your sleep
Being caught for merely telling your soul-mate “ I love U”
Being caught for gorging “ Pani Puris” ( Hindi for “ Gol Guppas”) & not thinkin about the sad water it was filled with
Being caught for stretching a phone line so loong ( it would reach the moon) to just listen to 5 minutes of the one thing you've waited for an entire 5 minutes
Being caught for buying an eraser which looked like a car to an eraser which looked like an eraser..lol

Memory lane..that would be my perception of all those incidents which you could smile at this very moment but meant the bloody world to you way back then, nd I would def like to add a “ hhahahahahaha” to summarize em.

And en route all of this you do get to hear stuff like “ I told you so”... “ You would realise only when you have kids”... You're almost there but haven't stepped across or rather crossed the “ Line of Control” ...LOC as we lovingly address to in India( Mera bharat Mahan..nevertheless)

A box of chocolates , A bouquet of flowers , A Cut out looking like a tiger with a tail, A sweet smelling candle, A birthday wish, An anniversary (puppy love times...lol), A sweet kiss, A glance, A glimpse, An “ ishara”, A wink, A mushy letter, A teddy bear, A sarcastic remark ending in a hug speaks for all ages to this date & does evoke the slightest of emotions that humans refer to as a rush of adrenaline.

Isn't life a beautiful thing which takes you through all these ages but still reminds you of one trifle fact that if you don't feel these emotions, you ain't living it at all..?!

Dint feel like stretching it tonite...hahahahhahhaah

Ajay Padattil
19/12/2009

Monday 14 December 2009

Life is Glorious ( Part II )

The Weekend that never was..!!

This should have been the title of my next one..but gladly it isn't....lol..Well.. like all of us say an extended weekend...long lost times of life...A love that would never change.. A mystery that would never unravel itself...the whole journey could just be summarized in that one bit.

I still remember the day I packed my bags when I'd got the first command tellin me “ You're goin Clientele” , & I was so lookin forward to it w/o one small livin grasp of regret to beckon with ...& I did.

Starting with my journey this weekend (A huge loong one..) after a bloody looooooooooooooong while still would sound an irony. Why I haven't , should I have...” Stayin here is a lost chance”..would all sound true to the world but me.! But it all started on “ A Wednesday”(to be precise).

Curbing myself to 3 drinks, boarding a bus, pickin up a bottle of water(which I did say thanks for..) , listenin to blaring sounds with visuals bu slept gloriously, wakin up in the middle of the night to finding my destination, listenin to woes...to keeping the spirits alive, visiting a beach to having biryani in the night ( Prohibited in a jungle), joining one of the most awaited (amazingly true) weddings of this millennium to meeting a fellow blogger ( And boy I do admire the flow) , tripping on FOOD (way too amazing(Bright Mutton, Bright “Patiri”.. Awesomeness in itself)), the walk down memory lane so early in the month wid a deo & lifebuoy ( Tandurusti ki Raksha) , magic moments, water in a “LEHAR” bottle, the tube, the fan, this pillow, the TV & the mosquitoes( Bidding adieu sumday..hopefully...lol) , this pen to the very last word...................... I think I did have one well deserved ( NOT!!!) happening extended happy weekend ( Holiday..!!)

I did once again love the technicalities of this moment ( And I mean literally).. Just loved the ABAP burger I must say....and that is sumthing I don't think I'd ever get to know if I'd tried too as well ( Hats off to Chekavar...The guy is just SUPERCALIFRAGILISTICESPIALIDOCIOIUS)

Life just had to be glorious as one may expect... Its sumthing that one would learn through passing times & phases. Getting philosophical again huh...?! But what the heaven...! Its just me... the people we meet, the times goin by, the stories that would register itself as one niched cacophony ( After all confusion would deliver us unto absolute fascination) , and one thing to surpass all “ living it”

to be contd..!!

Ajay Padattil
14/12/2009

Wednesday 9 December 2009

Life is Glorious..!!

This title was inspired!! when I was told about this title, I was supposed to write it for an *th std adult. Now I come to think about it & it strikes me that this was a topic I would've loved to write about all of my life but just dint get the right nuance to pin me. Tonight I dunno which moment or what event or wot colors actually inspired me to.

As I see it, everybody's come a long way from lollipops & candies(not that they still don't fascinate me.. but the philosophical touch..lol). In the two paragraphs I wrote for the original, I did keep stressing on the different colors life put you through.

I'd oodled bout the rainbow, the emotions, the tests that life put you through but termed life as the ultimate epitome of gloriousness.

Very recently sumbody I know real close quoted “ Everyday is a good day & Every time is a good time” & upon that moment & a bit of soul searching(Beep ...Beep..Heavy words not used to using!!) I realized,it's true to the very last “S”.

the time a human opens his eyes to witness all the “RGB” to blend with the monochrome that I lovingly call Black & White, we see different combinations of the primary colors to capture beauty even the modernest of gadgets would take an eternity to capture.

The one thing those devices would never be able to do is “Feel” , nd that is the dimension that non-living things would never comprehend or enjoy.

When we talk bout feelings, what is the first thing that comes to the limelight.?! Not wot we are experiencing right now, but I'm talking bout the purity with which we looked at that fan swiveling above us not realizing that this would be sumthing that would provide oxygen & carbon dioxide at the same time.

The Rainbows remind me of one thing “VIBGYOR”..not the colors but “Vision In Big Gigs Yearn Olden Realms”...putting it simply.. the present dwells on the past & most of us cherish them.

In the original I again spawned upon the emotions ranging from when you do sumthing childishly immoral to when your folks promise to get you chocolate later that evening.

It goes through a cycle where you probably get a pencil from a friend of yours at school,claim its been”given to you forever” when questioned by ur folks, advised never to do it again...shouting back..scolded at..still shouting back..grounded...still shouting back..a warning with a cane(which your innocence perceives as “Wouldn't be”)...still shouting back..cane falling..shouting transforming within split milliseconds to tears, not crying to show you are macho...a cold look...burst into tears..not minding..howl loudly...still not minding,....howl louder (a cry the neighbors would call the 100 because of...lol).. Folks give in...the hurt puppy look...folks feel bad....the smile(cute lil innocent devil)...folks ask you “never to do it again...its wrong”...Saying “yes”...Folks turning around...Running behind them showing your sorry face...chocolate promised...deal closed.

The above was a single little situation I think I loved to play & learnt a lot too. I loved the “Love”...te “Glory”..the “Experience”..the “warmth”...the “Discovery”... Rather the “Lesson Learnt”. This woz a situation I had summarized into two lines(A sentence to be precise) in the original...lol
All the small lil perfect moments in life teach you so much, just that its a lot later that v realize.

To be contd.....

Ajay Padattil
08/12/2009

Wednesday 2 December 2009

Organizing Techno..!!

Technology tends to slow the human pace
Trampling the right chin of the human face

Pleasing natures & the dark side come together
Placing priorities to solve the puzzle a task

Organizations play the employees tune some
Orifices leave the emotions mixed still others

Maybe the processes stall to think too many
Misty seems the path to take but hope floats

Diligently the heart & soul commit to completion
Dillusion would be the talk of the town

Commendable effort say the peers within
Clambering to survive blares the motto to begin with

Ajay Padattil
02/12/2009

Mya..!!

Words fall short to describe this homosapien
“Wit” would mark the begin of this saga

Take life as it comes would intermediate
Twist faith to two sides would indicate trust

Longing to achieve nirvana screams every step
Lasting spirits would still e a half crime

More lovely tropical forest to life's witnesses
Maximum utilization of the digital world

Nothing stops at just the begin for this man
Nimble hopes would take him through the journey

Enthusiasm to laugh his lungs out wouldn't deny
“No!!” & “Sshh !!” to explore this path bright.!!

Ajay Padattil
02/12/2009

Monday 30 November 2009

This is to meeee..!!

Would I start with uh or Ahem.?!
Would I start with yes or yeah?!

Shall I portray a blast of jeopardy?!
Shall I portray a slingshot of doubtfully.?!

Difference of lasting similes I would say
Difference of lasting flames you would deny

Limitless stamps of distant dreams should shout
Limitless stamps of time dint bray too much about.!!

Lot of hopes to fulfill & can't I.?!
Lot of hopes to sacrifice & will I.!?

This could possibly be the deepest I have written
This could possibly trip or swing my way!!

Ajay Padattil
30/11/2009

Monday 23 November 2009

Inspiration.. A myth ?!

There are many instances when a homosapien gets ideas, a trail of thoughts, reality strikes back, dream bubble, millions of ions passing an unbelievable amount of adrenaline right through his/her right cerebrum . When is it that he/she realizes it is an inspiration.?!

It, as I said, comes through at different walks of life. Probably when you have a cup of coffee, you wonder as to why can't you just create another helping hand which would save you the trouble.... Viola!! The coffee machine was the result of an inspiration.

Having & Making an inspiration, the word, are two different ends of the same coin.

One end(side) of the coin I'd like to term as an “IDEA”, “ BRAINWAVE” etc.. I've heard “etc” is just a way of portraying you know more than that but actually run outta words....lol.. nevertheless.. An idea is something that you feel outta the blue which could have no connection to what you are currently performing(action) or uttering(speaking).

The other end(side) of the coin I'd like to term as “ TIDARATION”.. Wondering what that word it?! Dat's just my idea taking shape of a tiny collection of alphabets put together randomly o form a symbol of “ Language”. This voyage I would term as an Inspiration.

“ TIDARATION” would encompass the journey from an idea to begin with, all the way to an inspiration, culminating in “ your perception”.. Still confused.??! My definition of “TIDARATION” would plainly be put as “ Take the IDea And make it an inspiRATION !”.

An idea is just the soul of the whole process, the chromosome, the atom. Inspiration is the binding force, the nervous system, the nuclear +ve & -ve. TIADRATION is the physical self, the molecule.

An idea is to you as a pair of Reebok sneakers is to a Sanyasi or Saint. An inspiration would be the path you lead. TIDARATION would reach you to the zenith of your idea becoming a reality as it is to the sanyasi attaining his GOD or Nirvana or Moksh or Deliverance as you may please.

If your idea does benefit another living or non-living entity, don't bury it under the soil waiting for it to sprout someday. Water it, feed it, nurture it...you never know, it probably would bear fruit one day changing the lives of a million souls ( I consider everything has a soul(living & non-living))!!

There are very few times a human being actually gets inspired or witnesses another soul's inspiration which actually gets you down to doing something you wanna do run away from it under the pretense of lack of time.

I'd say, chase your dreams( spelt I-D-E-A), live your dreams( spelt I-N-S-P-I-R-A-T-I-O-N), Inspire(spelt T-I-D-A-R-A-T-I-O-N) coz you never know what comes next.!!

If you are wondering what inspired me to smear this page with my ink.. I met inspiration on a bus.!

A coincidence, destiny, fate, Result of a trail of actions.. call it whatever you'd be inspired to call it.. But alighting a bus at the very last moment, an exchange of language( not this one), a gud homosapien, culminated in this early morning artifact..lol
Cheers!

Ajay Padattil
23/11/2009.

Wednesday 11 November 2009

Somehow SMilar..!!

Snapping at the smallest of differences
Smilin at the snappiest of slopiness

Swiftly as I would smiliest of laundering
Sincerely as I would dare swiftness of time

Slantly I would but sincerliest of admit
Slyly I would detour the slantiest of similes

Standing up to the slyliest of similarities
Scorn the mightiest, standiest to tryst

Silliest of linearity but scorniest of inspirations
Saline to the core but the silliest survive

Salvation would tone the salinity of dreams
Silt would solve the salviest of mysteries

Skipping right to the siltest of reality
Smiling would skip the truth of fatality..!

Ajay Padattil
11/11/09