And yet another time... this title & the story behind this one was inspired. You don't have to guess dis one... Kovalam... beer...pubs...technical...import duties...lovely times....bengalluru...new years....my man in trivandrum & this globe is too small... an indica.... self ESTEEM...lovely idol of krishna adorning the very rooftop of this dudes house.... fashion trends...cinema...house music...trippiest of times ...& I can go on... this was my inspiration.
The title was a situation when you go out & out on something but sumthing strikes you very sorrily to stare in your face& tell you one thing....you were never a link in the chain!!
When you actually give something to an organization & u do expect it to give you sumthin in return for the first time in your life....a small thing... probably just the case of one damn day... and the organization says “ I have to think & will get back to you”...I feel lie the people I have been selling its ( pronounced “ The Organization's”) skill sets when I knew It was worth emeralds but I still could deliver Rubies.... but I dint bother with the rubies coz its my family I'm talking bout & representing here.
Today or shall I say “ Yesterday” woz the day I truly thought the saying “ No Organization Shut coz the resources quit” felt so close to my heart that I regret so much so that I have to bring out the stupid consultant in me to my organization as well. HELL!! Its best to keep personal away from business 4 damn sure..!!
Today just confirmed my worst fears of turning into a pawn in the system, when a job that I was given... put my 100% for the first time in my epic saga with this family & godmother just decided to turn the tables SAFELY!!.. Thought alwayz that there would've been a reason for this to happen.. But an entire 24 hrs couldn't convince me I was right about the reason part.
Never did wanna leave on a bad note.... and I shouldn't ...Coz I don't like the corporate part of me... coz that just isnt ME or US or WE...but I guess like Mr. Anil Kapoor says during the climax of the movie 'Nayak'.. 'Aakhir Aapne Mujhe Politician Ban Hi Diya na..?!'... True to the very last 'na'!
A journey that lasted sweet three years & I would dedicate the spirit of my living thru, these to my soulmates HAAAL, my sweethearts '12' & my 'Godmother'. Sweet Sweet experiences & stories & times... I'd cherish forever.!
Another quote that I alwayz pondered on was “ Criminals are never born, situations make them that”.. I never believed in this crap until today... just that my weapons would be denial and distrust. Revenge is never an answer to anything.
“ Screw em Up!!”.. I wish I could, would & should. But I guess when you are a famliy, you gotta forgive and forget... But again I aint GOD... nd none of us are. But me I'd say to myself... Let these times pass ,for we have the past with this ancestorial joy to live upon.!
Ajay Padattil
20/05/2010
Thursday 20 May 2010
Wednesday 14 April 2010
Astounding..!!
Drawn apart by two swords distinct
Dim seems the light that lights the crystal
Laying off things that meant the world to humans
Laggin still seems the past for one tomorrow
Listenin to instances far & narrow
Lamenting on icebergs tippin off for heat
Degrees & counting claim lives of innocence
Diminishing families still cry these prayers
Amazing would be listing melodies
Astounding scream people in the 70's
Love life & grasp these moments
Live happy & gloat this very second.!
Ajay Padattil
14/04/2010
Dim seems the light that lights the crystal
Laying off things that meant the world to humans
Laggin still seems the past for one tomorrow
Listenin to instances far & narrow
Lamenting on icebergs tippin off for heat
Degrees & counting claim lives of innocence
Diminishing families still cry these prayers
Amazing would be listing melodies
Astounding scream people in the 70's
Love life & grasp these moments
Live happy & gloat this very second.!
Ajay Padattil
14/04/2010
Wednesday 7 April 2010
View This..!!
Listing things that most humans would look scornfully at i.e. hate, loyalty, weakness, caste, money, racism, discrimination, class, emotions, bluntness etc... Aint all of this stuff purely materialistic..?! If it isnt then its human to want more. If it is... then probably its close to “ Welcome aboard”.
When I do think bout stuff like racism or discrimination for that matter, its something which would relate closely to a belief which some people would call unreal & some others would call stupidity.
Forrest Gump once said “ Stupid is as stupid does”. I never did contemplate on that dialogue or never did I stop to wonder what he would've actually meant reciting dat piece of literature.
But tonight I do realize one thing.... that piece of literature was something which would tell the world “ The thing that you are is exactly the thing that you do”... or as they say in Shakespearean Language” As you sow so shall you reap”...to put it more bluntly, “ If you do stupid stuff you are stupid”...” if you do idiotic stuff ...you are an idiot”...”if you do logical stuff...you never are practical”...
Well I've run outta philosophy & words coz my dictionary is kinda exhausted & like a friend of mine said “ Gimme a copy of ur dictionary & I'd probably try to figure out half of wot u wanted to say..!! lol”.
My fault “ My pen isnt runnin outta ink”..My fault “ I try to stupify stuff”... Again this is the predecessor to the state of mind I would classify as “ blanatha” but I guess the whole thing is worth it.
The sun would shine tomorrow... The moon would still borrow.. If you & I live still in sorrow... Damn this burrow... Earth is narrow... I'd still Maro.?!
Ajay Padattil
27/03/2010
When I do think bout stuff like racism or discrimination for that matter, its something which would relate closely to a belief which some people would call unreal & some others would call stupidity.
Forrest Gump once said “ Stupid is as stupid does”. I never did contemplate on that dialogue or never did I stop to wonder what he would've actually meant reciting dat piece of literature.
But tonight I do realize one thing.... that piece of literature was something which would tell the world “ The thing that you are is exactly the thing that you do”... or as they say in Shakespearean Language” As you sow so shall you reap”...to put it more bluntly, “ If you do stupid stuff you are stupid”...” if you do idiotic stuff ...you are an idiot”...”if you do logical stuff...you never are practical”...
Well I've run outta philosophy & words coz my dictionary is kinda exhausted & like a friend of mine said “ Gimme a copy of ur dictionary & I'd probably try to figure out half of wot u wanted to say..!! lol”.
My fault “ My pen isnt runnin outta ink”..My fault “ I try to stupify stuff”... Again this is the predecessor to the state of mind I would classify as “ blanatha” but I guess the whole thing is worth it.
The sun would shine tomorrow... The moon would still borrow.. If you & I live still in sorrow... Damn this burrow... Earth is narrow... I'd still Maro.?!
Ajay Padattil
27/03/2010
Tuesday 16 March 2010
Beginning..!!
Beginning to believe the landships of earth
Beginning to feel the smartness of Aliens by heart
Beginning to think of life from a different perspective
Beginning to mend ways to start differently
Beginning to gaze at the blue skies & wish purity
Beginning to wonder when oxygen would be regenerated
Beginning to worry about the future first
Beginning to put the past behind few tunes
Beginning to treat things & prioritize
Beginning to wish life was a little fairer
All the above mentioned things are for angels
We still continue to live as the neighbour of the beast..!!
Ajay Padattil
16/03/2010
Beginning to feel the smartness of Aliens by heart
Beginning to think of life from a different perspective
Beginning to mend ways to start differently
Beginning to gaze at the blue skies & wish purity
Beginning to wonder when oxygen would be regenerated
Beginning to worry about the future first
Beginning to put the past behind few tunes
Beginning to treat things & prioritize
Beginning to wish life was a little fairer
All the above mentioned things are for angels
We still continue to live as the neighbour of the beast..!!
Ajay Padattil
16/03/2010
Peter Paul & MARY.. v miss ya.!!
I was walking down that path again
Which surely screamed no pain no gain
The whistle blows way away from here
A lemon tree so yellow its still satire
Blowing in the wind did shoot up lives
Puff the magic dragon sings one tonite
The Wedding Song did top the charts oh so well
When I die the world will cry & it did so swell
Leaving on a jet plane stirs ones symphony
I dig Rock n Roll plays different Adamantly
Started this out as lyrics for a melody
Couldn't stop myself from a tribute to her....Mary!!
Ajay Padattil
16/03/2010
Which surely screamed no pain no gain
The whistle blows way away from here
A lemon tree so yellow its still satire
Blowing in the wind did shoot up lives
Puff the magic dragon sings one tonite
The Wedding Song did top the charts oh so well
When I die the world will cry & it did so swell
Leaving on a jet plane stirs ones symphony
I dig Rock n Roll plays different Adamantly
Started this out as lyrics for a melody
Couldn't stop myself from a tribute to her....Mary!!
Ajay Padattil
16/03/2010
Friday 12 March 2010
Main Aur Meri Methyl Alcohol.!!
During my school days, in the chemistry lab I did hear of this element called ' Methyl Alcohol '. I used to wonder why this was called so when Alcohol was considered to be an evil substance. My curiosity was at its epitome when I learnt that this decomposes straight into something called 'ethyl alcohol' which at a later point in life would be known as THE SPIRIT.
Probably why people call it evil is because if consumed in large amounts this could prove fatal in many ways both to oneself & to the other souls too.The fatality caused to oneself could be summarized as one or more organs failing to function or to simply put it “ Screwed”. The fatality to other souls could come in many forms, the first being accidents.
The wind I've heard enhances the very essence of this substance called alcohol after consumption. The swaying of a human is bound to happen if consumed in smaller but large amounts leading to the state we call the “ Unknown”. In this state a human finds his home on a footpath or even places which would be unknown to him the following morning.
The good thing about this element is it is not biased i.e. gender no bar, caste no bar, religion no bar etc.... lol.
The other state of mind after consumption would culminate in violence ( I haven't understood the base of this emotion to date...lol ). When this emotion is triggered, a state of superiority complex & extreme power takes control of the human mind or so they say...lol. It causes people to behave in such an annoying manner coz they think they r supreme & the iceberg that titanic hit sounds like a spot on the moon.
The reactions in the morning would consist of amnesia, Blanatha & to some.... a sever headache ( feels the head is too damn heavy to carry).
This word “ Blanatha” was an addition to my dictionary very recently. It is defined as the slow feeling, lack of enthusiasm felt by a human body and mind in the morning after an overdose of “ Ethyl Alcohol “ during the previous night..lol
The headache state of affairs could be summed up as a HANGOVER which most define as situations varying from falling randomly asleep to a headache so huge that a shark bite would sound minuscule.
On an empty stomach, the SPIRIT seems to kick in more easily & results in the complete “ SWITCH OFF ” of a human body progressing into a world only that human can define at that particular point in time.
Some say, it also triggers music into the soul & mind. I've been there, done that & OH! Its true to the very last ”C”.
It does feel beautiful to speak to people you care about. A sense of truthfulness is ushered in without a doubt. Things & emotions are mixed so neatly that it just seems perfect.
A social gathering some might call certain nights when you can't enjoy your drink & end up prancing up and down with jus that drink to adorn your fingers. All sophisticated crap...lol.
Then there are times whe you decide a couple of em are good enough but end up sleeping the next day. At these times stuff that were never talked about previously crop in & a discussion happens ( this would put the UN conferences to shame..lol). Decisions made, journeys to go on, places to see & newer “ Glassmates” is what we refer to this in our countryside.
I would end this here coz of various reasons , the first one being “ Blanatha”.!
CheerS!!
Ajay Padattil
12/03/2010
Probably why people call it evil is because if consumed in large amounts this could prove fatal in many ways both to oneself & to the other souls too.The fatality caused to oneself could be summarized as one or more organs failing to function or to simply put it “ Screwed”. The fatality to other souls could come in many forms, the first being accidents.
The wind I've heard enhances the very essence of this substance called alcohol after consumption. The swaying of a human is bound to happen if consumed in smaller but large amounts leading to the state we call the “ Unknown”. In this state a human finds his home on a footpath or even places which would be unknown to him the following morning.
The good thing about this element is it is not biased i.e. gender no bar, caste no bar, religion no bar etc.... lol.
The other state of mind after consumption would culminate in violence ( I haven't understood the base of this emotion to date...lol ). When this emotion is triggered, a state of superiority complex & extreme power takes control of the human mind or so they say...lol. It causes people to behave in such an annoying manner coz they think they r supreme & the iceberg that titanic hit sounds like a spot on the moon.
The reactions in the morning would consist of amnesia, Blanatha & to some.... a sever headache ( feels the head is too damn heavy to carry).
This word “ Blanatha” was an addition to my dictionary very recently. It is defined as the slow feeling, lack of enthusiasm felt by a human body and mind in the morning after an overdose of “ Ethyl Alcohol “ during the previous night..lol
The headache state of affairs could be summed up as a HANGOVER which most define as situations varying from falling randomly asleep to a headache so huge that a shark bite would sound minuscule.
On an empty stomach, the SPIRIT seems to kick in more easily & results in the complete “ SWITCH OFF ” of a human body progressing into a world only that human can define at that particular point in time.
Some say, it also triggers music into the soul & mind. I've been there, done that & OH! Its true to the very last ”C”.
It does feel beautiful to speak to people you care about. A sense of truthfulness is ushered in without a doubt. Things & emotions are mixed so neatly that it just seems perfect.
A social gathering some might call certain nights when you can't enjoy your drink & end up prancing up and down with jus that drink to adorn your fingers. All sophisticated crap...lol.
Then there are times whe you decide a couple of em are good enough but end up sleeping the next day. At these times stuff that were never talked about previously crop in & a discussion happens ( this would put the UN conferences to shame..lol). Decisions made, journeys to go on, places to see & newer “ Glassmates” is what we refer to this in our countryside.
I would end this here coz of various reasons , the first one being “ Blanatha”.!
CheerS!!
Ajay Padattil
12/03/2010
Thursday 11 March 2010
Smashin.!!
Willow would sound this scratch from d master blade
With the greener pastures callin out to the very bright nd talented
Wastin time would still seem like a distant horizon
Softly but sweetly blast from the past say some
Wallowed within so many gusts of this symphony sounds unfair yea.?!
Withered within these winnin spirits would darken todays and nites
Winners all say some ppl outta der minds but sane
Participate and all r winners speak the logic which sounds absurd
Wade along the swans of the lame lake of joy
Morgan's law of averages still shines bright as the moon
Lost in the sanity of this moment and i still remain indebted to the sunrise
Lavishly tho... i would gather all the courage to face the very brunt of idiocracy
Standing tall still seems like a beat too far for this beast
Will i pay for this one or shall sarcasm rule the ozone layer.?! lol.!
Smashin stuff still talk the heads of this moment
Swiflty but elegantly this phase passes by..!
Play these babies like they would never live for tomorrow
Hold em like dey would live yesterday in lieu of Today.!!
Ajay Padattil
11/03/2010
With the greener pastures callin out to the very bright nd talented
Wastin time would still seem like a distant horizon
Softly but sweetly blast from the past say some
Wallowed within so many gusts of this symphony sounds unfair yea.?!
Withered within these winnin spirits would darken todays and nites
Winners all say some ppl outta der minds but sane
Participate and all r winners speak the logic which sounds absurd
Wade along the swans of the lame lake of joy
Morgan's law of averages still shines bright as the moon
Lost in the sanity of this moment and i still remain indebted to the sunrise
Lavishly tho... i would gather all the courage to face the very brunt of idiocracy
Standing tall still seems like a beat too far for this beast
Will i pay for this one or shall sarcasm rule the ozone layer.?! lol.!
Smashin stuff still talk the heads of this moment
Swiflty but elegantly this phase passes by..!
Play these babies like they would never live for tomorrow
Hold em like dey would live yesterday in lieu of Today.!!
Ajay Padattil
11/03/2010
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